I’ll embarrass myself infront of everyone here just to best explain this to you Jessica.You guys can feel free to mock me and I know you will but deep down you have felt the same,I know that for fact.
Given that I probably already was an insecure male, hairloss was a very traumatic experience for me to go through,even more so because it started in my teens.
I say that I was already insecure because there are millions of bald men out there who don’t care about their hairloss, they live their lives normally.The fact that it effected my life so much is proof that I already was an insecure man.
Hairloss took away my self confidence, it made me feel embarrassed, weaker,inferior & less attractive.I stopped going out,I hid from the world,I wore hats all the time.I didn’t want to feel this way & I didn’t want to hide but I couldn’t help feeling this way.This is something you cannot understand Jessica because you are not an insecure male.
When I started losing my hair a panic set in,I was suicidal,my world was ending.I was a yong man,how can a young man go bald ? Balding is for old men.I had a HTP straight away (approx 100 grafts) so I could get my life back.The grafts grew, but it wasn’t the result I wanted.I needed thousands of grafts to cover what I found shameful & unmanly & I wanted it done immediately so I could go back to being “normal” I didn’t want to wait years to regrow my hair, I wanted it over night. Don’t ever underestimate how desperate some balding men are to regrow their hair.
Unfortunately, my desperation to rid myself of my balding shame was exploited by a HTP Doc. He knew of my weakness, my desperation to regrow my hair back as soon as possible.All Docs now that we are desperate to regrow our hair, some Docs don’t lose their morals, mine did. He peformed a mega session on me knowing that my scalp lacked elasticity & to make a long story short I was butchered beyond repair. Life as I knew it had ceased to exist.I lost everything & I mean everything & I still haven’t gotten it back.
Now I am left with a huge scar & a few miss placed grafts growing in wrong directions. My only solutions are suicide, BHT or HM. Not much of an option is it ?
I know hairs don’t grow in scar tissue but I have grown so desperate I am thinking about BHT. IF I walk into Dr Woods/Arvind offices today,I am not going to ask them to transplant a 100 hairs from my chest into my scar & wait 2 years to see if it works or not. I want thousands of hairs grafted ! Not because I am stupid & didn’t learn my lesson last time,but because I AM DESPERATE TO END THIS NIGHTMARE ASAP.
I see baldness as a curse, a punishment & long to be free of it today, not years from now. It has nothing to do with me being impatient, but regaining my life.
I tried to explain this as best as I could but I am afraid that all these years of isolation have effected my ability to communicate with others.I hope you can at least sympathise with what a balding male goes through but I don’t think you will truly understand because you don’t see hairloss as something that can ruin/end your life.
You can only understand it after you have walked the path.