I am not some pathetic weak minded fool who gives up.I am a fighter by nature, I never quit. BUT,it has just gotten to the stage where it is really tough.The isolation, constant embarrassment & poor living standards as a result of my disfigured appearance is just to much to bare. Some days are better then others but when it rains it pours.
I have tried to rectify my situation but nothing has worked. Believe me, I have tried it all, except for BHT. Yes, I even prayed but apparently the boss isn’t speaking to me anymore either. I spent allot of money trying to resolve my problem & it was all for nothing.
There is an attempt to end ones life every 18 minutes; only 1 in 20 attempts are fatal. Most people believe that these failed attempts are a cry for help. That assumption is false, the fact of the matter is, it is very difficult to end your life.
For obvious reasons I am not going to go into specifics but most suicide attempts end with the person still alive, only now they are suffering from; kidney/liver damage, severe burns, they are wheel chair bound, blind or they are a vegetable. The possibility of these outcomes happening to me scares me a great deal.
I’ve thought about going to Amsterdam, as euthanasia is legal there. You don’t even have to be suffering from a terminal illness. All you have to do is convince 2 doctors that you are suffering by living, which I can easily do & they will put you out of your misery. The only problem is, you have to be a citizen of the country to have this done.
Potassium Chloride causes a heart attack which IS very painful. It’s used in lethal injection & was used by Dr Kevorkian. The prisoner/terminally ill patient doesn’t feel a thing as they are pumped with other drugs prior to the fatal dose of Potassium Chloride. I don’t have the luxury of intravenous drips or “death machines” I have thought about taking sleeping pills, waiting an hour until they kick in then take the injection. Either way, the pain doesn’t worry me.
I saw on the news that Dr Kevorkian is out of prison, I only wish other Doctors where as kind hearted as him.
I am not seeking any sympathy handouts. No offence to anyone here (some of you are great guys who provide allot of usual information) but I am not here to learn from you, I just visit MANY forums covering many different topics just so I can have some social component in my life. You can call me a troll,but it’s all I have left.